I'm Okay but I'm Not

Mm-mm

They ask how I've been lately

I say, "Fine," I don't elaborate

I learned how to change the subject

Before my voice starts to break

I don't bring you up anymore

I let them think I've moved on

But every time I'm alone

You're still where my mind goes

I stopped crying in public

Stopped saying your name

I look like I'm healing

But nothing's changed

I'm okay, but I'm not

I smile, I laugh, I say a lot

I say I'm good, I play my part

But I'm okay, but I'm not

I got better at hiding the truth

And pretending I don't miss you

Everyone thinks I've moved on

I'm okay, but I'm not

I don't post about missing you

I don't say it out loud

I keep it together in daylight

And fall apart when it's quiet now

You say, "You seem stronger lately"

I nod like I don't feel weak

But strength doesn't mean you're healed

It just means you don't speak

I don't reach out anymore

I don't ask why it ended

I learned how to survive it

Not how to mend it

I'm okay, but I'm not

I smile, I laugh, I say a lot

I say I'm good, I play my part

But I'm okay, but I'm not

I got better at hiding the truth

And pretending I don't miss you

Everyone thinks I've moved on

I'm okay, but I'm not

Oh, I'm okay, I'm okay

I'm not breaking down

I'm just holding it in

There's a difference now

Between healed and surviving

I'm okay, but I'm not

I've learned how to live with the thought

That some things don't fade with time

They just learn to stay quiet inside

I'm okay, but I'm not

Oh, I'm okay, I'm okay, yeah

Oh, I'm okay, but I'm not