Lost

Always think too much, I can't lie

Head up in the clouds, I can fly

Odds not in my favor, but I can try

Following the rules, but I might defy

At least the people close to me

Supporting me

Expressing myself openly

Just hope for me

Always think the most of me

I don't believe

Is this how life supposed to be

A joke to me?

Fuck it, Ima make my own path away

If I die, did the best, put it on my grave

You know people out there dying, so I'll be okay

If I said that I did, that'll never change

If I can, then I will, what I always thought

I don't think that's gonna change at the fucking top

Always made the best of things I already got

Couldn't write a better script cause I never plot

I got used to couple things that I'm not okay with

Eating by myself alone, ain't no one to hang with

I got numb from all that shit, so that shit is painless

I stopped hanging with the group that I fucking came with

Couple people tried to fit in, they getting wasted

Started putting in the work, so could go to places

Now I'm finding my self worth, in this fucking matrix

I'm still going on that search, find what I'm okay with

But they never really checked on me, I'm fine

On god

No more time, nonstop

Hold up, lemme make this my life of mine

My god, all align

Keep on trying, on top

At least I got it all figured out

But that's just another lie from my mouth

Don't even know what my future about

Truth is that I'm still filled with doubt

Still filled with doubt

Would it work if I took different route?

Took different route

Waiting for the rain in this drought

Rain in this drought

Fuck, I need to figure it out

Figure it out

'Fore the parents kicking me out

Kicking me out

Time only decreasing

Working on the weekend

Friends, they started leaving

I just need a reason

Time I gotta make the most of

Said don't get your hopes up

Chip still on my shoulder

Only getting older

Window started closing

I just want it open

Half of me is doubting

Other half is hoping

Cause this shit ain't senior year

How the fuck, when did I end up here?

Now they say I need to pick my career

Can't hit breaks, I can barely go steer

Maybe I'm a little lost and

Maybe I feel like this often

'Fore you do it go with caution and well

I could never do it, oh I could tell

I want it bad, gives me purpose, I know that

But all the rappers say they want their old life back

I tell myself, but I'm just putting on an act

Cause I don't really know if

I don't really know if I want it that bad