Losing Myself (For You)

I learned your tone before my truth

Learned what not to say to you

Every fight I swallowed down

Just to keep the peace around

I played along, I held my breath

Called it love, ignored the stress

You slept easy, I stayed tense

Wondering where my voice went

I kept folding just to fit

You never asked, but I did it

Somewhere I crossed the line

Between your life and mine

I was losing myself for you

Day by day, I disappeared

Tried to be what you needed

While I drowned in all my fear

I kept giving, you stayed still

I went quiet, you stood tall

I was losing myself for you

Now I'm done losing me at all

I said "it's fine" like it was true

Turned my hurt into an excuse

Painted warning signs in gold

Just to keep from letting go

You loved calm, you loved control

I was breaking under both

You never heard me when I tried

I was screaming in my mind

I kept bending, you stayed whole

I paid the price to play the role

I gave more than I had

Now I'm empty and mad

I was losing myself for you

Day by day, I disappeared

Tried to be what you needed

While I drowned in all my fear

I kept giving, you stayed still

I went quiet, you stood tall

I was losing myself for you

Now I'm done losing me at all

This isn't rage, it's clarity

Seeing you and seeing me

No more shrinking, no more fear

I choose myself from here

I don't hate you, that's the truth

I just can't keep living half-true

If loving you means losing me

Then that's not love I need

I was losing myself for you

Now I see it clear as day

I won't trade my voice for comfort

Or give my life away

I kept giving, you stayed still