Jaded

All of my life I've been hated

So I grew up to be jaded

All of my life I've been berated

And all of this time I feel unimportant

I feel so unloved

I feel so unwanted

My memories are haunted

To feel needed, I really want it

I wear sunglasses at night

Life has not been alright

Lately I've been feeling light fading from my soul even tho I try with all my might

So much death around me lately

Got my mind racing, driving me crazy

And I can't ask no one to save me

Nor hear me, I'm by my lonely

It's so much I hide behind my smile

You think I'm here but I've been gone for awhile

I'm feeling senile

There's No denial

This is another one of life's trials

It makes me throw up stomach bile

I swear I'm stress

I swear I'm vexed

I swear I'm a mess

But somehow I'm next

I work hard for my checc

At least give a niggah respect

I've been fucced up and depressed

Baby throw that ass on me and give me that sex.