A Million Tries

Loved you so hard I forgot my name

Played your little games, took all the blame

You loved the mirror more than my face

Kept me small, kept me out of place

I wrote the rules, I spelled it loud

You shrugged it off, so damn proud

You never listened, never cared

So guess what, baby — I'm not there

I gave you a million tries

You fed me a million lies

You loved the sound of your own voice

But I've got my own choice

Now the weight is off my chest

I'm done, I'm free, I'm not your mess

Every "too much" was your favorite line

Made me shrink, but I still shined

You thought forever meant only you

But I've got forever waiting too

I wrote the rules, I spelled it loud

You shrugged it off, so damn proud

You never listened, never cared

So guess what, baby — I'm not there

I gave you a million tries

You fed me a million lies

You loved the sound of your own voice

But I've got my own choice

Now the weight is off my chest

I'm done, I'm free, I'm not your mess

You want control? — Keep it, babe

I'm walking tall, I'm not afraid

You lost the best you'll ever see

And finally, I choose ... me

I gave you a million tries

You fed me a million lies

You loved the sound of your own voice

But I've got my own choice

Now the weight is off my chest

I'm done, I'm free, I'm not your mess