the ceiling is so far away

I'm looking up and the ceiling is so far away

I don't believe 'em when they tell me hope's a call away

And now I'm wondering if hell is such an awful place

Because this room is worse than anything I've grown to hate

Lonely fate had to live it

Fell in love with bad decisions

I ain't have no guidance or reminders of the path of wisdom

Maybe it don't exist or maybe I'm stuck here alone because it is what it is

I guess it is what it should be

Need somebody to push me off the highest peak

I'll hide deceit, decide I'm a rookie

In a world full of hate but I despise 'em the most

And I ain't see the sky in weeks yet I've been flying off zo

Looking down and my phone is always dry I hate it

I'm in my head up out the way, they lie in conversations

On rare occasions say they fuck with me until they losing touch with me

And now I'm going off the walls and can't evade it

I'm spiraling and hallucinating my eyelids are losing patience

I'm slipping out conscientiousness while my thoughts degrading

In reality nobody sees what I've been facing

And even if they did I bet no one would ever try to save me