I hate that I miss you

I hate that I miss you so much

No matter what I do I'm never enough

I'm getting high on these drugs

Cause you're the only one who made me feel loved

Now I'm watching movies alone

I'm sleeping on couches, I don't have a home

I changed your name on my phone

I'm having hard time letting go

I'm on mood stabilizers and anti-depressants

I don't know what you're expecting

Numb for so long I don't live in the present

Out of my mind I can't finish this sentence

I'm not a nice guy

I'm on so many drugs that I can't cry

And It's breaking my heart we departed

Cause I know that this ain't how we started

And I know that you care for me

That's why we gotta handle this carefully

Hindsight's where we gained all this clarity

All this weight on my shoulders could bury me

And I didn't mean to do you like that

Now you're in our room packing my bags

You can tell that I'm wearing a mask

Cause it's harder for me to connect

I hate that I miss you so much

No matter what I do I'm never enough

I'm getting high on these drugs

Cause you're the only one who made me feel loved

Now I'm watching movies alone

I'm sleeping on couches, I don't have a home

I changed your name on my phone

I'm having hard time letting go

Seeing all black, cause you blinded me

Trapped, but I'm tryna to leave

I can't be bothered

Still love drunk with this monster

Loosen my laces, won't run one more step

Faced with the matrix but both pills are red

Perfect illusions, no grapes on these vines

Picked every flower, the moon lost its shine

Lies and lust only led us to sorrow

Learn from mistakes, praise the lord for tomorrow

I hate that I miss you so much

No matter what I do I'm never enough

I'm getting high on these drugs

Cause you're the only one who made me feel loved