Firefly

Some say the end is the beginning and every life is a cycle

Every life is a story, so every life is a bible

Pulled in different directions by opposites that entice you

It's hard to see with all of the devils and gods inside you

When the lights come down and the room gets dark

In the candlelight flickers I'mma do my part

Darkness in my spirit give me lyrics, but i fear it

Only leads me to the doors of my destruction

I can hear it

Through the walls of conciousness avoiding all my common sense

And now anxiety appears to be my body's only occu-occupant

Sometimes I feel like the only choice is just to not exist

No, I'm just talking shit

Wouldn't do that to my mom and shit

Do that to my pops and shit

Do that to my kids

To my wife

To my friends

To my useless fucking life and shit

I might just try to sit and sniff and sip it all away tonight

And slip away into to the night and never see the morning light

I hope it's more to life before it turn myself into a fucking poltergeist

'Cause I got nothing left and I don't know what's right

That's why tonight I'm sitting in the lowest posture

In front of an altar tryna find a way to open all my frozen chakras

Breath into the belly, breath it up out through the nostrills

And as my mind settles then I start to hear the gospel

That some are still scheming for one another to fall

But self love requires the most courage of all

I've been trying to be healed

Looked into the sky for any sign to be revealed

When I'm out in public I aspire to be real

But the truth is that I'm only every trying to conceal

What it's like to lose a friend, in every moment you pretend

That it isn't killing you that you never see them again

So I take a deep breath within and I say your name in my mind

And the craziest thing about it is you respond every time

So I know I'm not alone as I'm taking steps in the dark

'Cause life is the deepest valley between the head and the heart