I'm Not Okay

I put on my coat, I put on my smile

Haven't felt like myself for a little while

Everyone asks me, "How do you do?"

I lie through my teeth and say, "Better than you"

But the mirror shows a man I don't recognize

With a heavy heart and tired eyes

I'm the rock, I'm the mountain, I'm the one who's strong

But tell me, where do I belong?

When the curtains close and the lights go low

There's a side of me that I never show

I'm not okay, I'm not okay tonight

I'm tired of fighting, tired of looking for the light

I'm drowning in the shallow end of my pride

With nowhere to run and nowhere to hide

Forgive me if I crumble, forgive me if I say

Darling, honestly, I'm not okay

The coffee is cold, the room is too quiet

My mind is a riot, I can't deny it

I carry the world on these shoulders of mine

Pretending that everything is working out fine

But cracks in the pavement are starting to show

I'm holding on tight, but I want to let go

I'm not okay, I'm not okay tonight

I'm tired of fighting, tired of looking for the light

I'm drowning in the shallow end of my pride

With nowhere to run and nowhere to hide

Forgive me if I crumble, forgive me if I say

Darling, honestly, I'm not okay

I don't need a fix, I don't need a cure

I just need to feel something pure

Let me be broken, let me be weak

Let the tears roll down my cheek...

[Piano Solo - Melancholic and Slow]

I'm not okay, no, I'm not okay tonight

I'm tired of fighting, tired of looking for the light

I'm drowning in the shallow end of my pride

With nowhere to run and nowhere to hide

Forgive me if I crumble, forgive me if I say

Darling, honestly, I'm not okay

I'm not okay...

And maybe that's alright.

Just not tonight.