Mirror After Midnight

When the light makes silver lines On my skin, cold air in the hallway

Lighted in your faded perfume Still lives in my sleep, but I'm not reachin

I'm learnin' to breathe

Late train rise, hood up, city blur Like a dream, rain on the glass

Writin' things I can't read I watch my reflection flicker in the dark

Tryin' to remember where the us part starts Unread messages, sleepin' in my phone

Little quiet ghost I never sent home Untied too much, then I erase it clean

Like I can't edit the place where you've been You laugh, used to live in my morning coffee

Now it tastes like truth, bitter but honest I fold my heart like a letter in my pocket

Walk past our street and I don't stop it The apartment breathes in a slow rhythm

Every room a different version of missin' I don't fall apart, I don't make a scene

I just get still and I listen to me

I used to confuse love with bein' chosen I silenced me and I should try harder

You lift a cry, tell the whole truth And it's softer than I thought, the sharper

You come back like a late night echo No one asked for the girl you knew

I love you deeply, I lost you quietly And I kept my name when I lost you

I kept my name when I lost you I kept my name when I lost you

Sometimes I still wake up, reachin' for air Like your absence is a shape in a bed stream

Lights through the curtains, soft bars of gold in my chest Does that thing, it won't explain

I replay the last look, how you looked away Not angry, just distant like you'd already left

I hated myself for needin' answers For wantin' a reason instead of the end

Your hoodie in my closet is losin' your scent And that's a small mercy I didn't expect

I stand in the mirror, eyeline deflated And tell my reflection, you're not abandoned

I take the long way home, pass the river Let the cold air teach me I'm still here

I'm not over it, I'm under the stars Findin' my voice in the quiet, sincere

Still here

Quiet, sincere

I used to beg, but it hurt to be smaller To be inside somebody else's life

Now I make room for all of my feelings And I don't apologize for the sad

And you come back with your careful words No, I'm not here to be used

I love to weep, I love to cry And I kept my name when I lost you

Here's a truth I never said out loud I didn't just miss you

I miss the way I vanished to keep you close to my heart

I thought bein' easy to love was the same as bein' loved

So I swallowed my knees like medicine And when my phone lights up in the dark

I don't hope it's you I hope it's me choosing me again

Choosing me again

Choosing me

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

You were right You were right, I'm glad we tried

But we're alive, you found your place And I'm alright, I know I'm not cool

Just finally true I kept my name when I lost you

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Oh, it's too late Too late

But we're alive, you found your place And I'm alright, I know I'm not cool

Just finally true I kept my name when I lost you

Rain on glass Rain on glass

It's when