Maybe she's born with it... Maybe it's... (demo)

I wasn't born this way

I didn't seek to be

Such a confused girl in this reality But here I am still having no fun

Writing the same song since I was 31

And they can talk big shit and think They know my side

But they have no idea how hard I Fucking tried

To not be so unseen to just be held And clean and not be startled awake And forced to flee

You ever hear of pain in folks that Shouldn't be

It's a hellish cave and yet the floors I Sweep

I'll tidy up the only me I've ever Known

Even if y'all think I should have Outgrown

My childish ways the stupid games I Play but you see to me they aren't Baby dreams

I don't know how to love I don't Know how to keep safe a heart so Rare yet easy to break

I'm not a coward or even insane I'm Hurting inside my own damn brain And the more I ask it to shut the fuck Up

The more it talks me out of love

Try another med this one will work And it will they do for a week or More

But I'll always collide with my Sparkly side and once again it looks Like I didn't even try

So I'm done with relationships close And raw

I'll just keep to acquaintances and Small talk so I don't trample through Yet another life just trying to be Someone's wife

Lalalalala