Letras
I been tryna feel somethin' but I stay cold numb
Heart heavy from the past so I stay rolled up
All this pain in my chest got me so slowed up
Mondazed fightin' every demon that done showed up
Yeah I took a couple pills just to calm my mind
Tryna run from all the shit I left far behind
I been stuck inside a hell that they can't define
But I'm crawlin' out the dark this my bottom line
I was down real bad couldn't sleep at night
Cold sweats from the stress that I'd try to fight
Pain hit too deep had to dim my light
So I reached for the drugs just to feel alright
Talk heavy but they don't know my withdrawals
Shakin' on the floor tryna answer these calls
Momma worried 'bout me thinkin' I'ma lose it all
But the devil in the bag had me back on fall
Pop one then another just to numb that ache
My heart breakin' every time that the high would break
And the truth hit hard like a tidal wave
You can't heal no wound with the shit you take
I was drownin' in emotions I could barely name
Tryna medicate the trauma that became my flame
Everybody see the wins but they skip my pain
Now I spit it in the booth let me bleed my name
I been tryna feel somethin' but I stay cold numb
Heart heavy from the past so I stay rolled up
All this pain in my chest got me so slowed up
Mondazed fightin' every demon that done showed up
Yeah I took a couple pills just to calm my mind
Tryna run from all the shit I left far behind
I been stuck inside a hell that they can't define
But I'm crawlin' out the dark this my bottom line
Opiate thoughts had me stuck in a trance
Tryna chase a high that was killin' my chance
Face pale stomach tight couldn't even stand
Withdrawal hit harder than any grown man
Throwin' up in the sink vision goin' blank
Feelin' every life choice that I ever tanked
Just to numb old wounds that they never thanked
But the pain didn't leave it just switched its rank