Letras
Listen
You did the best with what you had
I know you had your struggles as a dad
I know that you were older than the parents that these other kids had
I know we made it easy to keep getting you mad, mad, mad
I know you only beat me when you thought that I was bad
Patience never had, can't use it for excuses, but I promise I don't hold on to the past
Just wish that I could ask
About the things you struggled with as you became a man
Dementia took those memories I hoped that you could pass
If karma was a person, possibly you'd be a match
No parent needs to witness everything that you have
You lost your spouse and your older boys don't talk to you
Your second wife divorced you after feeling lost to you
And then your youngest child died, it was stopping you
From living anymore until your illness rotted you
Uh, and now you're dying in a nursing home
No idea who, where, how, why and even when you're gone
You return as if it was the first time
And I know that you're alive, but you're dead when your mind's gone
Yeah, you'll know when your mind's gone
What does it mean to be a Jones
Probably be alone
Listen
You only left cause you needed to
But Chris and I were young and still needed you
I know you tried, I denied ever seeing you
But I was hurt, your child never believed in you
That was a sad road to see me on
'Cause every bad boy still needs to see his mom
And every time that a woman tried to leave me on
Just like you, I blamed it on me being Sean
Still haunted by the past
Falling for pretty faces and fat ass
Women that love me are women I put last
Women I want most are women I can't have
So I'm hoping that you'll help me end the cycle, reconcile
Understand that I'm a broken man no longer in denial
I forgive you for leaving me, not evil, just need a smile
When the circumstances of your mental state feel like a pile of vile
And I'm aware of the attempts you made to visit
Turned you away and I'm still hoping you forgive this
I hope bipolar isn't anything I witness
After seeing what it did to you
I know that it's a sickness
I know you're not pretentious
Like the family in your business
And you know I'm a soldier
Since you witnessed from a distance
I know you're getting older
And you know that there's some brilliance
Being Jones is a sentence
Till your whole damn existence dies
You feel the hole that it leaves behind
You see your soul slowly leave your eyes
And you know when you're in it
Being Jones is a sentence
Till your whole damn existence dies
Listen
How am I doing? How am I moving? Tell me it's good, tell me I'm stupid
Tell me you're great, tell me you're happy
Tell me you're free, tell me you're laughing
I need you to come back and play some Zelda with me
Like the days when we were both some arrogant teens
Like when we were a team
When we barely have seen
What it means to believe
In the scariest things
Always tearing at strings
Always causing a problem
Always living a dream
Since we lived at the bottom
Took a couple of drinks
Being sober's a problem
Life is always a problem
But you know what I mean
Since you always believed
That your older brother was awesome
It's harder to see
And it's harder to breathe
Pressure popping at seams
Hope that God is somebody gracious and knows what I need
I hope you've seen all of my actions since the moment you died
The rise and the fall
The drought and the tide
The love and the purpose
The ego and pride
I hope I'm living what it means to be a Jones till I die