Letras
But I'm not fine, daddy
I'm sad and I don't know why, daddy
It's a thin line between love and hate
And I struggle with the voices in my head
Are these real or fake?
How much more of these synthetic meds do I have to take
Just to keep me from a mental break
That I really wish was a pause
To let all my thoughts process and figure out the cause
Of what's making me so sad, daddy
All you can say is pray about it
And all I can do is cry and have doubts about it
Will I ever stop being sad?
My doctor changed my meds today
Do I wanna take these?
I guess it depends on how I feel today, daddy
Do I really feel like walking around numb and oblivious
Feeling pity and sorrow for reasons unbeknownst to me?
My psychiatrist has a PhD in how to help me lose my sanity
All from talking to me and handing over a green pill
Take these if you will
But only at your own will, which is totally free
Unlike these pills that she keeps giving to me, daddy
She don't care about my mental health, daddy
All she wants is stable wealth, daddy
How would life be if I was just gone and dead?
I think how my son's soul would grieve for answers and stories untold
Only knowing how his mama couldn't bear her burden
She wilted like cabbage, fold
Did you realize my beauty?
Even though my body's on ice being kept cold
Who's gonna take care of my cats, daddy?
Like who really thinks of that, daddy?
I've got turmoil with good and evil
Don't show up to my funeral looking sad
When you were really the staple
I'm too vain to blow out my brains, daddy
I wonder if it's pain to let blood flow from my veins, daddy
Is there anything strong enough to hold me while I hang, daddy?
I told mommy once
But a mother's love is unconditional
As she tried to expand her broadband to understand
Why I want a junker new band
While people cry and stand around my wooden box
Being dropped below
And why I wouldn't want my ashes being spread to and fro
So I write about it, daddy
I let poetry help me right my wrong, daddy
And I write these words loosely and untamed, daddy
I'm allowing God to use me and set me free from these demons
Just support me, daddy
And understand it's not meant to be understood
So pray with me and may God set me free