black dress

Every day i wear a mask

To stay alive

But today i think i'll be

Fine alright

Blitz of faces, unfamiliar

I'd rather die than see her

I think you look fine yourself

I wish i could love myself

So many voices, overwhelming

I'm so sorry for oversharing

I trapped myself in my trauma

Now i don't know who i am

Text message sent, conditions met

I'm scared of abandonment

Trauma responding, why i'm lying

I feel as if i am dying

I don't know who i really am

That's why i can't help but cry

I'm scared of death, and still i welcome

Her with open arms

I'm trying to be transparent

I'll self sabotage and fuck this up

You're thankful that i'm honest

But you think that you'll do better

I'm sorry if i was misleading

Please don't fucking leave me

My clinginess, my stupid mess

Why do i feel embarrassed?

Blitz of faces, unfamiliar

I'd rather die than see her

I think you are fine yourself

I wish i could love myself

So many voices, overwhelming

I'm so sorry for oversharing

I trapped myself in my trauma

Now i don't know who i am

Text message sent, conditions met

I'm scared of abandonment

Trauma responding, why i'm lying

I feel as if i am dying

I don't know who i really am

That's why i can't help but cry

I'm scared of death, and still i welcome

Her with open arms

(text message sent, conditions' met)

(i'm scared of abandonment)

(trauma responding, why i'm lying)

(i feel as if i am dying)

(i don't know who i really am)

(that's why i can't help but cry)

(i'm scared of death, and still i welcome)

(her with open arms)

Every day i wear a mask

To stay alive