warm and welcoming without my weird mastering

I sit up inside my bed

I check the time, its three a.m

My eyes are wide and dilated

I think i'm dying tonight

(or will i see the light)

My jaw is shaking

My eyes are wide

My skin is turning

The color white

Or green i can't see

My eyes, my vision is blurry

I stayed up and watched the stars

What seemed like two minutes

Turned into two hours

I'm beginning to think about my past

And what couldn't last

I'm going to the end

And i know you'll see me there

I thought before that death was

Cold, dark and scary

But after tonight

If i don't die i'll know

That death is

Warm and welcoming