Part of Me

By the mill on the way canal

We'd shouted and ran about

And though your laughter echoed out

The sun came up and you weren't around

Decades passed, but you still belong

Still the memory of you goes on

And though my life had just begun

You were destined not to come

Though I find it hard to say

But part of me was lost that day

You're my son and will always be

You're the reason that I must see

I hope your dreams reach out for me

'Cause when I look, I just have to weep

Are you parted from what you want?

Are you stumbling where once you'd run?

I'll never know where you belong

Or understand where you're coming from

Though I find it hard to say

But part of me was lost that day

I was tired beyond belief

Reached out just to search for peace

And breathed the water of the deep

Still my body could not find sleep

'Cause when the laughter, it seems all wrong

When the sunshine becomes too strong

And all the pain that still goes on

Plentiful for everyone

Though I find it hard to say

But part of me was lost that day

Is this torment we should not have?

Is this grief that is not our mind?

And still our lives seem out of hand

One day will we understand?

'Cause if we learn from the days that passed

If we learnt, would we ever ask?

And can it truly control us?

Should we fear what we haven't lost?

Though I find it hard to say

But part of me was made that way