numb (static blue)

Velvet morning, eyelids heavy

Astray sun on my windowsill

I don't remember falling asleep

But I wake in the shape of him still

Your records spin like nothing happened

Dust dancing like we're just fine

I trace your name in condensation

Can't tell if I'm yours or just mine

And I'm numb like the sky in a static blue

Like a kiss that forgot your name

Like a prayer I keep half-saying

I should run but I just stay

In the silence we both made

I should scream but I just hum

I should feel you leaving

But I'm just numb

All the photos trapped in my phone

Fading reminders that I really am alone

We were church and we were chaos

We baptized every lie and now we feel the loss

And I'm numb like the sky in a static blue

Like a kiss that forgot your name

Like a prayer I keep half-saying

I should run but I just stay

In the silence we both made

I should scream but I just hum

I should feel you leaving

But I'm just numb

You said you don't wanna be that man

I said I don't even know who I am

Maybe, probably, I loved too loud, too raw

Now I whisper your name instead of call

And I'm numb like the sky in a static blue

Like a kiss that forgot your name

Like a prayer I keep half-saying

I should run but I just stay

In the silence we both made

I should scream but I just hum

I should feel you leaving

But I'm just numb

But I'm just numb

I'm just numb