Behind these Walls

Hmm

I ain't seen my mama in months

My girl stop callin' 'cause I know I can't come

He says it's love, but why does love feel like a cage?

Mm, mm

I don't recognise this version of me

Used to laugh loud, used to move free

Now everywhere you goin' feel like an interrogation

Every step I take comes with permission

My phone lights up, I turn it faced down

'Cause even a smile could start a war

My friends don't even bother no more

They tired of hearin' me sayin' "I can't tonight

He wouldn't like that"

He called it love, but love don't sound like silence

Love don't feel like hidin'

I swear on my heart

Forgot what freedom feels like

I'm locked up behind these walls

Cryin' now, but you don't hear me at all

You got the key, but you won't set me free

And I'm losin' myself tryna love you more than me

I can't breathe, I can't move

I'm alive, but I'm not livin', if this is love

Why does it feel like prison?

I used to dream about my future

Now I just dream about the door

Wonder how it feels to walk outside and not feel watched anymore

Mama texts me, says she miss me

I don't reply 'cause you're starin' me down

You got me scared to love my own blood

And somehow I've been convincin' myself that's okay

But it's not

God, it's not okay

I can't wear what I want, can't laugh too loud

Can't answer when my best friend calls

I can't even be the girl I used to be

You broke her, you built a stranger in my place, yeah, yeah

Locked up behind these walls

Beggin' for freedom, but you won't let me fall

You got the key, but you won't set me free

And I'm fadin' away, a little more of me

Every day, I can't breathe, I can't move

I'm alive, but I'm not livin' if this is love

Why does it feel like prison?

I thought love was wings