Letras
Dear Santa I don't need gifts in a bow
I just need a light for the places I don't show
I'm not the kid you used to know
But if you're still listening
Don't let me fade in the snow
Yeah
December hits different now
Used to feel like magic now it's just loud
People decorating windows in the whole damn town
And I'm here trying to breathe while my thoughts break down
These lights on the street don't warm me up
They just outline everything I'm scared to touch
Funny how growing up means losing so much
Even the parts you swore you'd never give up
Friends ask are you coming to the party tonight
Man I barely come to terms with my life
They toast new beginnings
I'm just trying to survive
Every cheer in the room feels like a spotlight
I miss the years when hope came cheap
When joy wasn't something I had to dig deep
When Christmas Eve wasn't just lost sleep
And I wasn't this quiet heavy incomplete
Dear Santa I don't need gifts in a bow
I just need a light for the places I don't show
I'm not the kid you used to know
But if you're still listening
Don't let me fade in the snow
December's a mirror
And I hate the reflection
Every next year will be better
Feels like misdirection
I've grown older yeah
But not in the ways I expected
More walls less trust
More fear than affection
I'm tired of pretending I'm fine enough
Of calling this loneliness growing up
Of swallowing pain like it's some kind of drug
Just to show the world I'm tough
I know change comes slow
But this year went cold
So Santa if you hear me
Help me not grow old in my soul
Santa
I don't want presents
I just want a moment
That feels like it's real
If you're out there
Leave something small
A sign a spark
A reason to stand tall
I'm done with numb
Done with hiding it all
Christmas comes fast
When you're close to a fall
I'm not the kid you used to know
But if you're still listening
Don't let me fade in the snow
Listening
I just want a moment
That feels like it's real
If you're out there
Leave something small
A sign a spark
A reason to stand tall
I'm done with numb
Done with hiding it all
Christmas comes fast
When you're close to a fall
I'm not the kid you used to know
But if you're still listening
Don't let me fade in the snow