Purple Rain

Had to question everything I stand for

Still purple rain and maintaining through the downpour

Cold night sleeping on the ground floor

I don't hate my father, I just wish he was around more

Nanny came on a visit and she just broke down

She says she looks at me as if I was her own child

And only I can choose the road I'm gonna go down

So I know I'm on my own when it goes down

But sometimes I can't cope, G, I can't lie

Cah from young, I been addicted to this fast life

Like I swear we were so high last night

And we didn't make it home 'til like half-five

And this is real shit this ain't just the weed talking

Every time I get away, I hear a fiend calling

I spend money I ain't got like a remortgage

I ain't slept for days, feeling like I'm sleepwalking

When I'm just tryna dodge another sentence

Stan Tookie Williams, I'm just looking for redemption

Hoodrat bitches holla, looking for attention

Snakes hissing in the distance and I can sense 'em

Fake man wanna smile, say they're down to ride

On the low, I know the same man wanna fuck my wife

In the hoo,d there ain't nothing but some fucking sluts and liars

But I'll clutch and rise it, you could get touched, I'm riding

Looking for a Judas 44's, tre 8's, dottys and some Rugers

Ot grow yard ciggies and some jewelers

Living for today like we ain't got no futures

And I don't really wanna change

Seen so much shit, some shit I don't even wanna say

'99 they said my mummy went on holiday

I found out that my mummy was in Holloway

But home is where the heart is so I'm loving where I live

And I know most man never struggled like I did

I was coming home hungry, weren't nothing in the fridge

So I had to hit the road like, "Something's gotta give"

'05 me and Dizz hitting kitties outta Holborn

Chicks couldn't grasp why I wouldn't show emotion

Had to tell that bitch, "Chill, I live among some vultures"

And a home ain't a home when your home's broken

And a home ain't a home when your home's broken

And then it gets harder

Feltham, Chelmsford, Aylesbury, Parva

And I got some yutes that need looking after

Two little girls that will never know their father

'Cause daddy was a criminal, mommy couldn't cope

So daddy went jail, left mommy on her own

I was talking to the mandem, they're like, "When you coming home?"

"Just keep rapping, it could happen, trust me, you can blow"

I gotta trap cah it's the only life I know

And my nanny's always telling me as if I don't know

And now I heard it's action what defines the man

Blowin' macaroni, got me thinking 'bout this life I've had

And I'm just thinking 'bout this life I live

As I'm getting older, had to question would I die for this?

Man are riding life in bin

Shit, the cases in the Old Bailey

Separated mice from men, from young I learnt don't talk

You know the game, you get caught, that's your own fault

Did my first sentence as a baby boy

Born in the 90's, fucking with them 80's boys

Olders put me on road, back when it was all love

Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us

Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us

But don't front like roads something that you're built for

'Cause you could die for something you wouldn't kill for

Mad years behind that steel door

Mad years on my strip, mommy's still poor

Wait, there's still more, I'm trapping 24's G

Up and down, in and out 'til I got sore feet

'04 to '06 I never saw sleep

Raw B had me counting bags at fourteen

'07 I left the crown court free

Back and forth on Feltham for like four weeks

(Damn)

'08 I was back behind that door, G

Firearms charge I rid the whole 4 peak

But I rid that, the life you dickheads rap about, I live that

Pebble down a big batch

G-star pack and told him flip that (damn)

I told him take three and bring six back (here we go again)

And T's been gone for a minute (people talking shit but when)

Now I miss akh (shit hit the fan)

And I miss C and I miss whites (everything I'm not made me everything I am)

On my kid's life, every day I risk mine

I'm just tryna live right so I gotta do wrong

Couldn't see you walking two steps with my shoes on

Ratchet always told me, "Re-up before your food's gone"

Ratchet always told me, "Re-up before your food's gone"