Tears and Time

I thought I'd paid this toll before

Felt the blade, and shut the door

I drank the dark, I bore the flame

Laid my sorrow down in shame

But here I am, undone again

Why must I break again?

Another fracture in my soul

A hollow place I can't control

The wounds I hide begin to speak

Their silence holy, raw, and weak

Can grace be found in shards and pain

When I can't bear the weight again?

Why do You carve with tears and time?

Why is this climb a steep design?

Here is my ruin, here is my creed

I bring You what's left of me

If strength is born of broken things

Then let this breaking ring

The mirror's cracked, the light leaks through

And all I built dissolves from view

But in the ash, beneath despair

Your hands are moving, carving prayer

What I called loss, You now command

To build the promise, not the sand

You whisper low through silence deep

Child, I break the ones I keep

I prune the vine, I cleanse the flame

You're not forgotten in the pain

So if You carve with tears and time

Then let the chisel find

Even if I can't yet see

The beauty rising out of me

You were broken too

So I will trust what You renew

I'll break again, if You are near

Just promise You'll be here