Hindsight

As I drift on the water, a voice calling to me had said

"Sail into the harbor, cast down your nets and follow Me"

First of all the chosen, I saw the raising of the dead

It must be my devotion, for I stood alone upon that sea

So I walked on the tempest, I saw the waves below my feet

It's clear I was the bravest, to meet the stranger on the deep

I am the rock on which to build this land

Got the keys to the kingdom, I'm at His right hand

I was the first among the chosen, the boldest in devotion

Walking out upon the ocean, what else could I need?

I'm well-versed in forgiveness, as many as seven times repeat

In service was I fearless; attack my king, my blade you'd reap

(What else could I need?)

Haunting my reflection, a bitter thought comes to my mind

I made known my objection, about how You had come to die

You said my thoughts were of the devil's kind

I was opposed to Your kingdom, and I should get behind

But You were talking like You're cursed,

already laying in Your deathbed

Maybe somehow You were misled.

May it never be!

You said I would fall away before the rooster's crow would end

To my shame did I betray, deny You as my closest friend

I'm singing, heart is hardened

I'm sleeping in the garden

I'm swinging swords I'm guarding my kingdom and my stardom

Am I different than Judas? For I betrayed the kindest friend

I'm all out of excuses, with nothing to make my amends

O Love! O Love! O Love, You bottomless abyss!

O Love! O Love! O Love, You bottomless abyss!

How tender You had spoken

though I betrayed the kindest friend

Faithful in devotion, such a love I cannot comprehend

Oh when You found me I was broken,

from the words that I had spoken,

but You were faithful in devotion.

You remembered me!