Rise

To the thought of a laugh

Who does drugs in class?

Atleast you're going and you pass

One day that'll be a degree

It'll matter to someone

To see how committed

To what you're told mattered

Flattered with the ability

To do more in time

I think higher now in mine

Mind space

As I set the learning process

At the base

Multiple tracks stay

Medication changes things

Somehow

Someway

One way

Two door

Silent to not

Build scenarios

With subconscious plot

Of caring what someone else

Had to think about

See it floating in the clouds

The day it was acknowledged

It was because I had other things

To think about

Allowed awareness to expand

As attention followed demand

A farmer forgetting

When to til the land

As he learns about the new factory

My battery needs a deeper mastery

As I couldn't fathom

That happening to me

Applicable to one or two

Three maybe four

Five if my heart

Grows beyond myself

And find my roar

I don't care who I saved

I can do more

Never an excuse to

Walk out the door

And never come back

Every heart I light up

Keeps me on track

I think I see the road

The heavy foliage like a rocky cove

I know what would have happened If I stayed home

I'd keep smoking til the stress Exploded out my dome

Like I wanted to

A gun on safety was

Worth more in my hand

If I could get the clue

They got nothing better to say

But maybe it'll help

For a couple days

Reassurance in different ways

It's possibly just a phase

Believe it and find a way

Even if you're crazy

There's something

Going on up there

Fail to explain it and why isn't clear

Told to write a book

Want to rhyme and

Take a little longer

To understand hooks

Plagued with run ons from the start

Smart enough to

Not get an instant zero

Bad enough hand writing

I had to speak it anyway

Stutter might have them say

To just redo it

Atleast I can read it

Understand enough sometimes

What I was really meaning

To avoid future edits

This mattered for some reason

Let it

Setting myself to learn how to Comprehend and analyze

Paranoia with little to metabolize Maybe

I ask to die too much

And that shit never been hazy

Just triple disassociation

If I need more time to understand The association

Creation comes in variation

They felt demonic relation

Toxic radiation

Brought em from home

Same feeling elsewhere

On the spectrum of greeting

I receive

So I trust it just enough to achieve The knowing of why they appeared

Why it felt like a spiritual mugging Made clear

Knowing to recover made it

Nothing more than a poke

That broke my sense of being

For the day

I'm sorry I have to lay my head down

Stabbing in my back

And I can't focus

First bogus

Learned the mind can only hold us

Thus moving onto more"I'm not mad at you anymore

I don't think I ever was

I just wanted to fuck with you Nickahlis just because"

That's why I don't wear my gloves When walking

Remember defense

And honest talking

When I speak I ain't mocking

I was just someone who listened

In the moment to forget after

Dialect sparking a mix of Unconscious intent with memory

How'd you grow up?

I'm thankful for the faint memory

I wish half of what stuck

Would fade forever

And I'm grateful for who's apart of What's left as I continue to better Understand the purpose of life

With those that choose and meet Along the way

I got a lot to say and I wish it returns Quicker like it used to and that Might not be worth to pray for

I know deep down

I'm just burnt to my core

A bedding for the next iteration

As they form