Push You Away

I know, I know, I got issues

Turn love into war then I miss you

Say I need space then I hate the distance

Guess I only love when it feels resistant

Oh, you thought you could save me?

I don't even know if I'd let me

Heart like a diamond, cold but it's heavy

You hold on tight but I cut too deadly

I tell you to go but I want you to stay

Turn good things bad, it's my favorite mistake

I swear I don't mean it, I swear that I care

But I build up these walls then I dare you to tear

I push you away then wonder why I'm alone

Break what I love then call it home

I'm the queen of burning bridges

Light 'em up and watch the distance

I push you away then wonder why I'm alone

Break what I love then call it home

I'm the queen of burning bridges

Light 'em up and watch the distance

Tell me why you're still trying to fix this

Tired of the cycle but I'm addicted

I'll pick the truth and the brightest lies

Then act surprised when you read my eyes, no

Don't try to understand me

I'm chaos wrapped up in candy

Sweet on the surface, storm underneath

I'd love me too 'til I cut too deep

I know, I know, I break what I touch

But don't you dare say I ain't enough

I ain't perfect but damn I try

Guess I was built to love then say goodbye

I push you away then wonder why I'm alone

Break what I love then call it home

I'm the queen of burning bridges

Light 'em up and watch the distance

Maybe one day I'll stop the cycle

Maybe one day I'll love for survival

But for now I'll watch the flames

And whisper your name through the smoke and the pain