Indigo

Slave to my habits 

Slave to my habits

Ridges on my back from all the lashes getting calloused

Liquor got me leaning on my liver from an axis

Try to double cross it hoping I retain my balance

But I fall and roll

And I always hit the ground harder than I pray 

Add another chip onto my shoulder and I'll break

Into jagged little pieces you'll look at me like, my god

Cause you never knew how many outside forces it would take

And I didn't know

But I've cried so much at so many different intervals

That my fingertips are getting blue 

And my heart is going indigo

Indigo

But I've gotten so used to me losing that I'm letting go

And I'm trying really hard to breathe

But my heart is going indigo

Sun in my eyes

I can't see

I was tryna to fit

Plan A into Plan B

Every time I run I remember I can't hide

Wanna let go confide cause I still can't sleep at night

Tried to stand on my own, can't keep upright

Never lean on a soul tryna be polite

But I kept looking up tryna reach a height

Reach a height

Right now 

I don't wanna come back down

I just wanna give myself space

I just wanna play my sound

Indigo

But I've gotten so used to me losing that I'm letting go

And I'm trying really hard to breathe

But my heart is going indigo

Indigo

So cold when you find it

When you come back home

I'm reminded

That I want to be alone nowadays and that

Is always in my mind

It's a blinding fact

Sun in my eyes

I can't see

I was tryna to fit

Plan A into Plan B

if I could run from my past

I'd redact it so fast

That I don't think I would understand me

Mhmm

Light in my eyes

They think that I'm blind