Letras
These first few months, I've felt I was born out of time
Like I'm spun 9/8 and the world's swinging in 8/9
It doesn't feel quite right
I wanna fall into the sky and feel the light
I feel like I was cut into the wrong shape
And then jammed into place
Like a toddler doing a puzzle (Making pieces break)
But when I'm with you, I feel like I am okay
Like I might be sane
Like we fit into eachoth-
(You know that didn't come out how I wanted it to, but it's like um)
I would do anything to be
Who Silas sees in me
'Cause I don't want to be
A walking paradox who's missing both knees
Why do I feel like this is falling apart
When I've worked so hard
To hold things together
Maybe I'm just not
What you saw
Or what you want
And I'll never be better
(I will die the same)
And I wanna see
What is out there
In the world beyond the air
So I can
Make a new mold
And feel okay again
I used to long for nothing more than to be who you saw in me
Now all I wish is you saw who I thought you did
Because in the end I see that I was pretty damn successful
The problem is that you saw nothing in me
And I wouldn't really care if you had never said a thing
This only hurts because I really thought you loved me
But now it's clear to see you never loved me
I was just your mortal limited nothing
So did everything you say to me mean nothing
'Cause if that's the case then I really am nothing
'Cause my worth's defined by what other people see in me
So when I die, I'll die your limited nothing
'Cause our worth's defined by what everyone else sees in us
So when we die, we'll all die parallel nothings
'Cause everyone you know will die alone in the end
So when we die, we'll all die parallel nothings
But nothing really matters when you're nothing