Letras
My distrustful disposition
Born from your buried shame
My wild intuition
From your misplaced rage
My tendency to hope that one day
My love could make you change
I know, I know, I know
My constant fear of being too much
At war with the fear of never being enough
Fated to be forever afraid of being loved
I know, I know, I know
Memorized the patterns of footsteps
So I know who's behind the door
Teaching me that loving means to fight to stay alive
What else are mothers for
But I don't wanna say goodbye
Before we get to make this right
But we know there's only so much time can do
And I don't wanna let you go
Before I get to let you know
I know you did the best that you could do
But it all comes back to
I'll never know what it's like to miss my youth
I only got a taste of peace at 18 when I left you
Shows my broken bones and bruises over facing the truth
And I know that you know and you know
I'm told to live my life the best that I can
To make you proud
If only they knew
That I live my life well not in your honor
But instead in spite of you
But I don't wanna say goodbye
Before we get to make this right
But we know there's only so much time can do
And I don't wanna let you go
Before I get to let you know
I know you did the best that you could do
But it all comes back to you
And maybe I'll never understand how you could ever be so heartless
As I understand a mother's love to be an unfaltering promise
And we may have all suffered at his hands but let's be honest
You were the only victim that rebranded as accomplice
And even though now you're gone
The damage still lives on
But they argue it made me who I am today
But that's what they've got wrong
A child needn't be strong
I needed to be safe