Wearing Thin

Matchhead patience, flares, then dies

I'm one more fuck-up from lighting the sky

That cheap LED buzz makes me want to break walls

Pen clicks, mouth smacks, every tiny sound crawls

Coffee tastes like ashes, screen glares like spite

My jaw's a vice; I grind through the night

Another task, another fake smile stapled on tight

My kindness is sandpaper, wearing down bite by bite

You ask, "You good?" I say "yeah," but I lie

I'm a short fuse praying no one walks by

I used to breathe the quiet like it kept me whole

Now every whisper carves lines in my skull

If calm is a place, I lost the key

I'm a cracked fuse box begging to bleed

I'm so fucking tired of pretending I'm fine

My head runs hot like a goddamn fault line

I bite my tongue till the copper leaks out

One more tiny thing and I'm screaming aloud

Hold me together or get out of the way

Because I'm breaking, I'm breaking today

Cap left off the toothpaste, rage in a jar

Shoelace snaps, now I want to wreck cars

Neighbors stomp upstairs like they own my air

A pop-up window and I'm pulling my hair

Can't find my keys; I curse the whole street

I hate how I love when excuses sound sweet

Therapy notes say "breathe," but the breath won't land

So I white-knuckle hope with a trembling hand

I used to drift with the tide and float

Now I'm all bite marks on the inside of my throat

If peace is a myth, then fine, let it be

I'll burn this whole path till it sets me free

I'm so fucking tired of pretending I'm fine

My head runs hot like a goddamn fault line

I bite my tongue till the copper leaks out

One more tiny thing and I'm screaming aloud

Hold me together or get out of the way

Because I'm breaking, I'm breaking today

I don't need forgiveness, I need a night of sleep

I don't need advice, I need a silence so deep

I'm sick of being "strong" just to make you feel right

Let me be weak, LET ME LOSE THIS FIGHT