Hold Me Break Me

I feel you in the silence

Like a ghost beneath my skin

You touch a distant violence that pulls me back again

I crave it but I panic when it's right there in my hands

I build these walls like habits and bury love in sand

Tell me why it hurts to hope

Why I run from what I need

I'm drowning in this rope

I tied around me just to breathe

Hold me break me Love's a war I never win Save me hate me

I burn the bridge before it begins

I want it so bad but I push it away

I scream for the light then I beg for the gray

Hold me, break me

I'm the fire, I'm the rain

You see the cracks you reached inside

But I flinch like I've been burned

It's safer in the lonely night

Than a love I haven't earned

Your heart beats like forgiveness

Mine beats like retreat

And every kiss I miss feels like defeat

I built a cage from memory

And called it sanctuary

Hold me, break me

Touch the wounds I never show Save me

Hate me I choke on truths you never know

I wanna be whole but I'm wired to run

I bask in the dark but I reach for the sun

Hold me, break me

I'm the damage I've become

I don't know how to let you in

Every time I try I come undone

Don't tell me love's a gentle thing

I've only ever seen it with a gun

Hold me I swear I try Break me but stay this time

Hold me, break me

Take me down or pull me through

Save me, hate me

But don't do what I always do

I want you, I fear you, I push you away

But part of me's begging that you'll still stay

Hold me, break me

Love me anyway