Still Vibrating

Air in the hallway, thin as a sheet of light Streetlights feel slow, go through the blinds

Tonight My phone face down like it could bruise the

Dark And I'm learning how to breathe when the room

Goes quiet The kettle clicked but I forgot to pour

So the mug just holds a promise getting cold I left the TV on for company

Volume low enough to not feel bold Your name still sits in my recent calls

Like a door I don't open but I touch There's a den in the couch where you were

Lean in my hands, still aims for it too much I walk the apartment in soft feet, oops

Counting floorboards like they owe me truth Fade in neon from the corner store

Write soft warnings on the living room

My red text stack like unpaid light Little rectangles I can't make right

I type arrays, type again and let the screen go black like a sign

I don't break down, I just break routine Everything normal with a quiet scene

The night gets white, I get smaller in it Like I'm fading where you used to fit

I'm left on quiet, still vibrating Like a song with the hook erased

Your shadow moves when the fridge light opens And disappears without a trace

And it's not thunder, it's a slow wake A deep chest feeling I can't name

I keep the door locked, keep my heart open Still hoping you'll come back different

But I'm left on quiet either way, either way Either way, either way

The city looks better after midnight When the traffic turns to distant waves

I pass a street and don't turn my head Like that's how you keep a scar, behave

I try new places, new faces, new laughs But my smile lands soft and slips off fast

Everybody talks like tomorrow's guaranteed I just act like I'm built for that

There's a misstep in every memory Like a record with a worn out groove

Your hoodie in my backseat still smells like rain

After shaving truth I catch myself rehearsing apologies

For things you never asked for me Then I stare at my own reflection

Like who am I when you don't see? Who am I

I don't chase you, I just trace the line Where your life ended in my kept time

The neon hum, hum, the hallway heat All of it louder than your heartbeat kept time

I'm left on quiet, still vibrating Like a song with the hook erased

Your shadow moves when the fridge light opens Then disappears without a trace

And it's not thunder, it's a slow wake A deep chest feeling I can't name

I keep the door locked, keep my heart open Still hoping you won't come back different

But I'm left on quiet either way, either way

Either way, either way

Mmm, if I'm honest I miss who I was around you

Not perfect, just clear And now I talk in half-sense sentences

Like my voice is scared to reach the end I've been trying to replace the feeling

With noise, with light, with anyone But the truth is I don't want somebody new

I want my old self back, one by one So I sit with the quiet like it's medicine

Let it burn, let it teach, let it pass Cause losing you didn't break me loudly

It just took my future and turned it glass

I'm left on quiet, still vibrating But I'm learning how to stay

The same streetlights, the same empty echoes Just a different kind of weight

And it's not thunder, it's a slow wake A deep chest feeling I can't name

I keep the door locked, keep my heart open Still hope we'll come back different

But I'll be left on quiet either way, either way

Either way, either way

Cold coffee, faded neon One last check of the screen

I'm red again, so I breathe and let it be Streetlights, static on my skin

Like a goodbye And the night holds me quietly