If Only

If only I would have known

You were halfway out the door

Thought your silence was a mood

Never asked you what it's for

Now your drawer is sitting open

All your sweaters gone

Just your hanger swinging quiet

Like it's humming you moved on

If only I would have known

My baby really gone

Now I'm so all alone

My heart doesn't have a home

If only I would have stayed

Instead of clinging to my pride

Now I'm talking to the shadows

Where you used to sleep at night (oh)

Two cups in the kitchen

Only one gets used

Your side of the sink

Misses all your perfume

Phone face down

Still hoping for your name

Scrolling through our pictures

Trying to find where I changed

If only I would have known

My baby really gone

Now I'm so all alone

My heart doesn't have a home

If only I would have stayed

Instead of clinging to my pride

Now I'm talking to the shadows

Where you used to sleep at night (yeah)

I replay every answer

To questions I never asked

You were begging me to see you

I kept living in the past

Now I'm whispering I'm sorry

To a key you won't use

Staring at the doorway

Waiting

Knowing I lost you

If only I would have known

My baby really gone

Now I'm so all alone

My heart doesn't have a home

If only I would have stayed

Held your hurt like it was mine

Maybe you'd be in my arms

Not just echo in my mind (if only)