Still Healin

Got some shit on my chest you know what i'm saying?

Part Time, I tend to wonder who I am through my moms eyes

And do I make her proud of me or is it lost time?

Do I illuminate the room through these dark times?

Or did it turn me to a monster?

Cut a nigga off before he speak, why bother?

Quick to quit on love, Last girl was like Karma

That's why I'm in a hood near you i'm big pharma

Breaking Benjamins with my brothers, we still rockers

Uh

Still partners with my day ones

Told em on my life ill make it happen and my days come

A fear of mine, shit there ain't nun

Not too many stood the test of time, but I ain't break once

Already lost a lot

All the time invested in my craft it really cost a lot

Year after year we moving closer but ain't on the top

Maybe cause the method that I chose is unorthodox

Maybe cause financially my life been in an awkward spot

I be by myself and me and me we tend to talk a lot

Tell myself to be myself and don't be them, you know you not

Don't be moving petty or malicious for a lick back

It seem like everybody fuck me over can't forget that

My new boo try to show me love I can't accept that

I'm damaged I regret that, I can't change it

I need clarity but still getting faded

And they be smiling more than me that I made it man

Listen

Uh I can't relate to the feeling

Its dope to make it but I need healing

Told her, uh, cause there a void in my spirit

And ain't a bag big enough to fill it

That's why, uh, I need love need fixing

Be patient with me please i'm still healing

I told her, uh, I need love need fixing

Be patient with me please i'm still healing

I'ma leave it here if I can't talk about it

They asking how im committed and how im all about it

What if I told you this is all I got, my thoughts are clouded

Stories in my memory bankrupt but I fought up out it

I see the way they lookin at me they expression changing

Associates giving praise for faves super blatant

I'm in a 911 cruising I'm hotter than satan

A baddie with my learn my language she say I'm contagious

Be my muse while I'm high and i'm scribbling pages

She told me what I been through is the reason I'm famous

And every hurdle that you leap is a skill that you gaining

And every problem needs solutions he's teaching you patience

Show em resilience and character make you a star

Show em that you ain't got no chill and you taking it far

Show em you better than potential you raising the bar

I thank her for the love, but I still got pain in these scars

Uh I can't relate to the feeling

Its dope to make it but I need healing

Told her, uh, cause there a void in my spirit

And ain't a bag big enough to fill it

That's why, uh, I need love need fixing

Be patient with me please i'm still healing

I told her, uh, I need love need fixing

Be patient with me please i'm still healing