Letras
I learned how to stay quiet in a house full of noise
Learned how to disappear just to keep the peace employed
I carried every morning, every night, every need
Still got told I was failing at the life I was leading
I held the walls together while they caved in on me
Tucked the kids into bed, swallowed who I couldn't be
Every fight ended the same, I didn't see you
"You're not enough," just dressed in different names
I started doubting my memory, my voice, my mind
Wondering if the problem had been me the whole time
It got so dark, I almost didn't make it
Thought about the edge more than I should say
Every mile on that road felt like a question
"How hard would it be to just drift away?"
I didn't want to die, I just wanted silence
Just one night where the pain would let me sleep
It got so dark, I almost didn't make it
But I'm still here
She found someone else while still holding my hand
Said she didn't know what she wanted, then made me the plan
Back and forth, pulling the ground from my feet
One day I was her anchor, next day I was the disease
When I finally said, "We should let this end"
She nodded like relief, then sharpened the lens
Told the world I was cruel, told the kids half-truths
Painted me a villain just to justify leaving the truth
I watched my name turn to a weapon I couldn't defend
While trying to stay standing for the sake of my kids
It got so dark, I almost didn't make it
Thought about the edge more than I should say
Every mile on that road felt like a question
"How hard would it be to just drift away?"
I didn't want to die, I just wanted quiet
Just one moment where I could breathe
It got so dark, I almost didn't make it
But I'm still here
I sat alone with the steering wheel shaking
Wondered if ending it would stop the aching
Not because I was weak
Because I was exhausted from trying to be everything
Then a light showed up I didn't expect