Letras
How do I stay when it's make believe
This carousel, mends a broken dream
They say its love shares everything
But its all just a figment of imagination
Now I'm racin' through these verbs like ima' pace em
Checkin out like ima patient of insane asylum
I looked my father in his eyes, every time that he got violent
Hope that when I have a child all those thoughts will be erased
Know I'll embrace him, love and raise him in the space of a safe haven
Give him everything he needs to grow and prosper
Show him what it means to be a loving father
You plant a seed, you pick the weeds and reap the harvest that's a fact of life
This aint a world of wrong and right, or day and night or black and white
When elements collide you feel the static
I'll take the white and black combine it on my pallet
When the hues are true you find the gray matter
What's it matter now
Everyday is just a battle ground
Workin' hard to find the common ground
Days ahead we just countin' down, to the grey matter, grey matter
Lost my mamma man
Long pause no comma damn
Hold my tears like a grown ass man
I'ma try and find that promise land
Or the Grey matter, Grey matter
I saw the devil in my father's eyes
A fear arose I didn't recognize
He raised his hand as I sat petrified
The blood sprayed like insecticide
Only six months removed from that turbulent night
When my mother, and your wife chose to take her life
I can't blame you for the pain, but I'm not the one to blame
Man I try to understand, Dad it's just not right
Yeah it's hard for me, I just wish we'd live in harmony
Come to my games, I made varsity. Your minds clogged like an artery
I just hope that one day you will find you can pardon me
Yeah it's hard for me, I just wish we'd live in harmony
I got a job at the pharmacy. Your hearts in shards like pottery
I love you dad, don't be mad I just wish you were a part of me
What's it matter now