One time, a long time ago
When I lived in the city and had no money
I had a morning flight at, like, seven or so
So I decided to share a van to the airport
I thought it would be frugal
(Spoken)
So there I am, 4AM, they're schlepping us around the city
Stuffing us in. I'm pissed and tired and it's still dark out
And there are horrible people around me. And I'm regretting
Being born. And when it seems like they can't squeeze anyone
Else in, they stop again, on the Lower East Side. And of course
I'm looking for the building where my great-grandfather lived
And then this woman comes down the steps of this tenement
(Sung)
She was stunning as she glided down like a goddess
And sat next to me
And the ride got much better
I was making the movie of our life in my head
The van ride, the courtship, the wedding
The children, the house in the country
I hadn't talked to her yet
So I had to do that
So I did all at once
We were talking
She's a writer
She's going to Israel
She's writing a novel
And in the meantime writes for hip magazines
And she smiled
And I died a little
The first stop is her terminal
She says, "Nice to meet you"
And she's off and I wait while she gets out her bags
Then I make my bold move
Before I can think I get up
And I ask for her number
And to my surprise she says, "Yes
My name is Leora, by the way
Here's my number
I'm gone for ten days
So call me after that"
I get back in the van
And I'm making the movie of our life
And the sequel
And I smile
And I am so happy
(Spoken)
So I count ten days 'til she's back from Israel, then a couple days
More to be cool, and I call. I left a message on her machine. Left
Another message a few days later. Nothing. So then I left it alone
I didn't want to be that guy. A couple of months later at a newsstand
I see one of her hip magazines and I figure I'd read whatever she
Was writing and stew. So I flip through, don't see her name. Look at
The masthead, find her name, Leora Chaykin, and then a phrase in
Parentheses: "In Memoriam." What? I go to the library and search and
Search and search and finally I uncover the newsletter of some church
In some city where a woman wrote about witnessing an accident, how
She followed the victim to the hospital, where she
Waited with a girl who was in a coma until the family
Arrived. Now, that's what being a Christian is all
About. Pretty sure Leora was dead by the time I called
(Sung)
She just never woke up
She was out for a walk
And got hit by a car
And she never woke up
Today there's a website her sister put up
You can see pictures of her
And read her novel
Which I still haven't done
It would kill me if it was bad
But for so long all I had
Was this magazine next to whatever Beth's reading
And all that time when I was thinking
That she wasn't calling me back
She was
And I'm mad
'Cause she made the end of the movie impossible
We could have ended up together
Or at least we could have shared a milkshake together
And now I just remember
I just remember
How she smiled
And I died a little