I'm Not The One

I wrote this on a napkin at 2AM

With all the things I never said back then

You wanted forever, but I was pretend

A picture you painted, I couldn't fit in

You loved me like I was some holy flame

But I burned you out with my stupid games

Tried being the girl you dreamed I'd be

But she's not hiding inside of me

And I hate how I let you believe in a lie

When deep down I knew I was never your sky

I'm not the one you write your songs about

Not the hand you hold when the lights go out

I tried to love you, God knows I tried

But I've been breaking your heart with every lie

So this is goodbye before we both come undone

You deserve more than someone who runs

I'm sorry, but I'm not the one

You kissed me like I was your final wish

But love shouldn't feel like a sinking ship

I laughed when I should've cried instead

Your heart said "stay," but I always fled

You saw fireworks, I saw fire escapes

You called it fate — I just called it fate's mistake

I'm not the one who'll dance in your rain

Not the voice you'll hear calling your name

I tried to hold on, but it hurt to pretend

So I'm setting you free with this bitter pen

No more half-truths under the sun

You deserve a real kind of love

I'm sorry, but I'm not the one

You'll meet someone who makes your world spin

Who won't flinch every time you let her in

She'll love you loud, with no disguise

While I watch from the silence I left behind

This isn't because you weren't enough —

It's because I'm not enough... for this kind of love

I'm not the one who'll wear your last name

Not the spark that sets your soul aflame

I wish I could be your safest place

But I'm more goodbye than I am grace

So here's the truth, and then I'll run

You were right — I was never the one

Don't wait for me in the setting sun

Walk away

I'm not the one