Ode to My Willpower (Or Lack Thereof)

This might be what I amount to

Someone who is used to

letting the world just ignore me

while I cuddle up with my LCD screen

It might just be what I need

These prescriptions make my stomach bleed

And nothing outside of my door makes me wanna get up on my feet again

Try and understand that i'm not really a fan

But I think its just who I am

Picking myself up

Letting myself down

Here comes another shame spiral

Topping all of this

Is at the bottom of my list

And one day

I might be able to pick myself off of the floor

But not today

I could give myself a chance

Get in the right zone

I have way too many friends to feel this alone

And maybe

I could shed some pounds

And up my self-esteem

But if you only like me then

You're probably not who I want around me

I'd rather you like the round me

The round me

Picking myself up

Letting myself down

Here comes another shame spiral

Topping all of this

Is at the bottom of my list

And one day

I might be able to pick myself off of the floor

And maybe one day it will come to me

Not to live perfunctory

And I won't be left with

Picking myself up

Letting myself down

Here it comes

Topping all of this

Is at the bottom of my list

And maybe one day

I'll pick myself up

But not today

But not today

But not today