Nervous

I don't feel a thing, only numb or I'm nervous

Pain in my eyes trying to hide that I'm hurting

Tried getting high, the drugs aren't working

Codiene cups I was drowning in purple

I feel like a dead man walking

Drew would understand it, I wish that I could call him

Every time I smoke I hear dead men talking

Db would've heard me out, I wish that I could

Have 'em by my side for a minute of the day

Visions of your face have mine twisted up in pain

Sitting by your grave think of things you used to say

It's been different since you died and I wish it never changed

I'm sick and tired, skin and bone

Brain feels drained I'll just sink more cones

I can't breathe through my nose and my throat needs a stoke

These pills only do what they're supposed to when I'm over my dose

I'm getting over it bro

Doing everything I can to trying to be a better man

Got the world on my shoulders trying to get it in my hands

See my brothers grinning with the things we never had

But what I'm doing isn't working, I need a better plan

If rapping doesn't work soon it's back to selling grams

I keep having Bad Dreams that broke and I'm back where I started

Gronks talking shit, they'll be finished if they start me

Never say it my face is 'cos my back is their target

Beefing with themselves in my inbox got me laughing

I ain't going back and forth I just send a haha

You can hide me from me but you escape from karma

She's a tough bitch and runs quick

Put a man overboard if he jump ship

If I deal with this myself there'll be bloodshed

People I grew up with I don't where the love went

Blame it on the drugs, find it hard to function

I think I'm hard to love, self destructive and impulsive

Traumatised and paranoid, jumping to assumptions

Quick to lose my temper if I think they're on some fuckery

Deep down must think the drama where's I thrive

Scared of getting hurt so I'm starting all the these fights

Stuck in fight or flight, my nervous system's fried