Heavy Light

Recollections move through in sudden shifting shapes

I release into the unburdening

To live here in this unforgiving lightness

To hold it all as it is

I am all that never and always was

I am still a child finding flowers, unfurling forms

And falling further into laughter

I am still cradling sand, steady in the hand

I am the love lasting

And there I am, a fragile being in the belly of your body

And there we are, mirrored in likeness

And shrouded in the shadow of duality

Here we are, severed together

Where I am finding my way through this barren field with bruised knees

And even at the shattered edges I see the ways we loved

And the ways we hurt

The ways I've always carried the weight of your absence

Reaching for you when I needed you

And I will keep reaching

To live here, in the heavy

In the light

I am the heart I've needed

And I feel it all