self destruction

You're such a wannabe

I don't know what's wrong with me

But I need to let it go

It's picking at my head

And leaving all the bones

I know it's hard to try, but I'm tryna to let it go

Part of me accepts you wanna go

It's like a ticking time bomb

I wanna know what's wrong with me

I'm tryna figure it out, I'm trying my best

I wanna cut off all these things

I'm trying to rule these all out

My mind can't take it, I wanna-

Ay, yeah, ay, ay

I wanna go back, go back to the old me

When I was never loved, what I'm better now?

I miss the old times, before the best stop

Before you hated me, you're better dating me

I'm always findin' ways to self-destruct myself

Ruining everything I've ever felt

That's just how I'm supposed to deal with doubt

I could probably find a better out

I'm ticking down my time

Don't question, what's my mind?

Don't play like that, I know

I'm trying all I can

Don't tell me I lost all control again?