Exist at all

I wake up every day feeling stuck in my head

Same dark thoughts playing over again

I look for a reason just to get through the night

But everything I touch never feels right

I try to believe there's a point in the pain

But every road I take feels empty and fake

I tell myself maybe tomorrow I'll change,

But tomorrow comes and it feels the same.

I reach out once, then I pull away

Cause I don't think anyone would stay

I feel like I don't exist at all

Like my name would fade if I didn't call

I feel like I could disappear now

Like no one would notice me at all

I wanna live, I really want to now

But this weight keeps pulling me through down

I scroll through my phone, but I don't hit send

What's the point when nobody checks in?

I laugh it off, say I'm doing fine

But I'm breaking down every single night

Life keeps moving, I'm stuck in place

Watching everyone else escape

I ask myself what I did wrong

Why being alive feels like too much

I just want peace in the little things

But even joy feels out of reach

I feel like I don't exist at all

Like my name would fade if I didn't call

I feel like I could disappear now

Like no one would notice me at all

I wanna live, I really want to now

But this weight keeps pulling me through down

Why does life feel wasted on me?

Why is wanting more too much to need?

I just wanna breathe, feel okay

Enjoy the small things, day by day

I feel like I don't exist at all

Like my name would fade if I didn't call

I feel like I could disappear now

Like no one would notice me at all

I wanna live, I really want to now

But this weight keeps pulling me through down