My Heart Instead

I think I know what's been going on

Driven by voices inside of my head

I wanna do right but they show me wrong

I guess I should listen to my heart instead

I'd like forgiveness but I'm owed none

I make the choices and lie in my bed

I wanna do right but they show me wrong

I guess I should listen to my heart instead

Before you judge me, take a look at yourself

I would rather work on an issue myself

Before I give up and start looking for help

But it's embarrassing when people staring cause it takes me longer

Do you know how I've felt

These people miserable

If I could, I would be invisible like that book on a shelf

I never wanted to be a person who would put my business out in the open

Doesn't take a meeting with a therapist to figure out I'm damaged and I'm broken

All those windows of opportunities got out of my reach

Couldn't stop 'em from closing

Any moment my drive is decreased then the cycle repeats and I'm like

Here we go again

Here we go again

Yeah, my canvas is blank

But I've narrowed down the banks where I'll put 7 steady streams

To provide for my children

Birthed by a beautiful woman who's wearing my wedding ring

Wasn't ready for much

Because I was such a person who'd blame it on everything

But I got to the bottom

Saw I was the problem. It's over

I'm coming for everything

I think I know what's been going on

Driven by voices inside of my head

I wanna do right but they show me wrong

I guess I should listen to my heart instead

I'd like forgiveness but I'm owed none

I make the choices and lie in my bed

I wanna do right but they show me wrong

I guess I should listen to my heart instead

After I realized all the damage I'd done

It was too late to fix any of the mistakes I made

Or take back the trouble I brung

When confrontation is the topic

I don't follow logic