I Don't Like Who I Was Then

Tossed around like sea glass and you rounded out my edges

I'll feel better when the headaches go away

I've got a scar across my forehead, turning purple in the cold

From a night at Shore Memorial, I was sixteen and afraid

I turned away, I'm working babyface

Out of Mid-South in the eighties

I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I wanna shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks

I wanna run 'til my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enough

Hidden in the tall grass, in the naked light of day

I put my past self in the ground, I've been dancing on the grave

I'm not the person that I was then, I'm tearing him way

I was bitter, I was careless, I was nineteen and afraid

But you deserve more from me

I don't know why I would say those things

But you deserve more from me and I'm trying every day

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I wanna shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks

I wanna run 'til my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

I think enough is enough

You left me walk in circles

You were a shot in the dark

You were the baby teeth I buried

You were the sounds of distant cars

Left me walk in circles

You were a shot in dark

You were the banner that says "No one"

That I tattooed across my heart

You left me walk in circles (you left me walking in circles)

You were a shot in the dark (you were a shot in the dark)

You scattered like ashes across every song that I write

You're where the light pollution starts

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust

I wanna shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks

I wanna run 'til my lungs give up

If I could manage not to fuck this up

If I could manage not to fuck this up