Clown

Sorry, tonight I ain't got that grin,

Fake-smilin' through the same old spin.

Makeup's bleedin', tears do the laundry,

On my clown face yeah, that's the irony.

You don't give a damn 'bout my day,

My rage, my trash, or the games I play.

You just want the beat to erase your pain,

So I slap that red nose on again.

Crowd's lit up but I'm runnin' cold,

Tryna laugh while my soul's on hold.

They cheer, they scream, they dance and shout

I'm dyin' inside but I can't clock out.

I'm a clown in a world that don't care,

Painted smiles, mascara despair.

My tears wash the color off my faith,

Still rockin' this mask my clown face.

Yeah, my clown face,

Can't wipe it away.

Sorry, kids, I ain't funny tonight,

This costume's tight, this pain's in sight.

Been hidin' behind that angel grin,

Forgot who the hell I've been.

Lost my road, can't find my spark,

Feelin' like a dog chained in the dark.

But the club is full, and they wanna sway,

So I choke my truth and fake okay.

I'm laughin' loud in a mental cage,

Another joke, another stage.

You just want lights not the scars I chase,

So I wipe 'em clean and paint my face.

I'm a clown in a world that don't care,

Painted smiles, mascara despair.

My tears wash the color off my faith,

Still rockin' this mask my clown face.

Yeah, my clown face,

Still fakin' grace.

Tell me, am I the only one pretendin'?

This mask we wear is it ever endin'?

Fits too tight, can't breathe tonight,

But we all hide behind the light.

I'm a clown in a world that don't care,

Heart on my sleeve, but the crowd just stares.

My tears wash the color off my faith,

Still rockin' this mask my clown face.

Yeah, my clown face,

My clown face...

Still on display.