Already Gone

I've been ghosting all the pieces

Of the person I should be

Folding letters that you left me

Like they're secrets in my seams

Every memory is a rerun

Playing louder in the dark

Guess I never learned to hold you

Without tearing you apart

And I swear I'm trying not to drown

But I'm breathing in the water now

'Cause you were the calm in my bloodstream

Now it's chaos in the space you leave

I'm a bruise that never fades out

Shouting your name in a silent crowd

If healing is supposed to hurt

Then why does it feel like I'm getting worse?

I'm still falling, still calling

For a love that's already gone

Left a map inside my ribcage

But it never led me home

I keep tracing every moment

Just to feel less on my own

You were thunder in a whisper

You were quiet in the storm

Now I'm learning how to stand here

In a world without your warmth

And I swear I'm trying not to drown

But I'm breathing underwater now

'Cause you were the calm in my bloodstream

Now it's chaos in the space you leave

I'm a bruise that never fades out

Shouting your name in a silent crowd

If healing is supposed to hurt

Then why does it feel like I'm getting worse?

I'm still falling, still calling

For a love that's already gone

I stitch the night around me

Just to feel something that stays

But every dream you haunted

Starts to break like tidal waves

If letting go is mercy

Why's it colder than the truth?

I'm rebuilding from the wreckage

Of the future I saw with you

'Cause you were the calm in my bloodstream

Now it's chaos everywhere I breathe

But I'm learning how to stand up

Even when my chest is tearing up

Maybe healing means the heartbreak

Has to echo till the walls all shake