I Just Want To Sell Out My Funeral

Clear the apartment

I plan on collapsing and I could have sworn I heard a car door slam

I'm stuck at the corner of grinding teeth and stomach acid

All alone under a soft rain and streetlamp

I spent my life weighed down by a stone heart

Drowning in irony and settling for anything

Somewhere down the line all the wiring went faulty

I'm scared shitless of failure and I'm staring out at where I wanna be

I just want to sell out my funeral

I just want to be enough for everyone

I just want to sell out my funeral

Know that I fought until the lights were gone

I'm walking through harbors and churchyards

I felt the snow crack under my feet

I'll stay thankful for mild winters, for every shot I got at anything

I'll blame the way that I was brought up or the flaws that I was born with

Or the mistakes that I've made

They're all just fucking excuses

So bury me in the memories of my friends and family

I just need to know that they were proud of me

I just want to sell out my funeral

I just want to be enough for everyone

I just want to sell out my funeral

Know that I fought until the lights were gone

And oh, we all wanna know

Where'd the American dream go?

Did you give up and go home?

Am I here alone?

And oh, when the credits roll

I'll watch as the screen glows

The moments when I choked, all the fears that I've outgrown

At least I hope so

I was just happy to be a contender

I was just aching for anything

And I used to have such steady hands

But now I can't keep them from shaking

Oh I'm sorry I...

I'm sorry I don't laugh at the right times

Is this what it feels like with my wings clipped?

I'm awkward and nervous

I'm awkward and nervous

I'm awkward and nervous

I'm awkward and nervous

I'm awkward and nervous

But I was kind of hoping you'd stay