It Begins, It Begins

I'm no good at lettin' people in

I don't understand the state we're in

Couldn't tell you where the rift begins

But it begins, it begins

I've already memorized the outline

Wish we could go back to wasting our time

What is all this heat and noise?

I could swear we have a choice

We're choosing to do this

We chose to do this

But I'm not

I'm no good at lettin' people in

I don't understand the state we're in

Couldn't tell you where the rift begins

But it begins, it begins

And I don't know what's on the other side

All I know is that I realized

All these walls are holding us inside

Can't abide, can't abide

I'd turn this car around, I'd drive a long way

To find out why we ended at this heartache

Can't there be another road? It can't be how this had to go

Where did we lose it?

How did we lose it?

I don't know

I'm no good

I'm no good

I'm on the phone with nothing left to tell you

These words, they only wound, they'll never heal you

We've backed into our corners now

And from the silence tell me how

We manage the distance

We're not used to distance

And I know

You seem to remember things I don't know

You seem to remember things from long, long ago

You seem to hold on to things I let go

You seem to hold on to things from long, long ago

That I don't know

In the playground of our memories

We choose where to run to when we can't sleep

In the darkness of our maladies

We choose what to cling to when we can't see

I think we choose a little different

I think we're choosing where our light is sent when we are spent

And since we're choosing something different

It ends up different, it's so damn different

And I'm no good

You said I'm no good

Understood, you knew I would

I'm no good

That's it, I'm no good

Understood, I knew I could

I'm no good, I'm no good

I don't even recognize the outline

Wish we could go back to wasting our time

And if we could

Getting over what we should

Holding on to what was good

But we're no good

No, we're no good

At pretending

If you leave then I'd believe you, whatever this is

Is it ending

If I leave, then I'd relieve you, whatever this is

Is it ending

Is it ending

Meanwhile

I'll go to people I'll never let in

And in the meanwhile

I'm getting good at beginning again