Still Something

I wish people wouldn't feel weird bringing it up

Cuz it's all I'm thinking of

You're all I'm thinking of

And I wish when we talked that I heard your voice in response

Or knew if you could hear me at all

I press my hand to the walls

And I long for a purpose like I had before

And I hate that life feels like a never-ending war

And I learned so much and nothing in these two long years

The world just ended and I'm just standing here

I'm still standing here

And I know now

There's no life beyond this grief

But there's still red wine and sunsets and trees

They make me think of you

Your smile lives in the ocean blue

So I'll keep it, all this pain beyond belief

And brag about you to strangers that I meet

Cuz that's still something

That's still something

I wish no one ever assumed that I'd move on

Acceptance is a con

That girl is gone

And I wish I could bottle some joy and make it last

I can't live in the past

The guilt comes in a flash

And I prayed when we were kids

I did it every night

That we would have a healthy, long, and beautiful life

And in a single instant, worse than all of my fears

The world just ended and I'm just standing here

I'm still standing here

And I know now

There's no life beyond this grief

But there's still red wine and sunsets and trees

They make me think of you

Your smile lives in the ocean blue

So I'll keep it, all this pain beyond belief

It's an honor to keep it close to me

And that's still something

That's still something

That's still something

That's still something

That's still something