Beneath the Surface

I'm slipping away again

I'm staring at the hourglass

My mind is racing

I can't make sense of all the thoughts in my head

I'm so sick of feeling everything

I want to escape

But if I can't get past all these walls that I've raised

So carefully created for me to feel safe

I'm not quite myself

But I just don't know how to get there

I'm just so scared

I'm no savior, I'm barely alive

Falling apart at the seams

I'm a failure

I'm lost and alone

I've let you down again

I'm breaking down the broken man inside of me

I'm holding onto memories until

I'm left conjuring ghosts

Looking to find them all homes

In the cracks within my heart

(Cracks within)

My heart is breaking under the pressure

I've got a coffin full of words left unsaid

And I don't think that I want to die anymore

But I'm not sure if I want to live

So if I can't get past all these walls that I've raised

So carefully created for me to feel safe

I'm not quite myself

But I just don't know how to get there

I'm just so scared

I'm no savior, I'm barely alive

Falling apart at the seams

I'm a failure

I'm lost and alone

I've let you down again

I'm breaking down the broken man inside of me

I'm holding onto memories until

I'm left conjuring ghosts

Looking to find them all homes

In the cracks within my heart

(Come on)

(I can't fucking breathe)

For a moment

I cannot breathe

There is darkness

Where there should be air

Pressing on me

Something I can't push away

Fear

I'm just so scared

I'm no savior, I'm barely alive

Falling apart at the seams

I'm a failure

I'm lost and alone

I've let you down again

I'm breaking down the broken man inside of me

I'm holding onto memories until

I'm left conjuring ghosts

Looking to find them all homes

In the cracks within my heart